|Posted on February 6, 2011 at 2:14 PM|
It’s late Sunday afternoon, almost dusk. The rain is lashing against the window, it’s cold, extremely windy and I’m glad I’m here; tucked up inside, tapping on my keyboard. There’s something comforting about being inside on a miserable day, especially when you close the curtains, light the candles and shut out the world. Soft music in the background, my keyboard and that little place in my head I call sanctuary! I have to admit I’ve arrived at the end of the week slumped over the keyboard… A headache which has persisted for eight days and a body which feels as if it’s been run over by a steam roller!
It has however, been a week like no other: My little book ‘Raw Emotion’ was finally released. After all the months of preparation it was somewhat surreal to see it sitting proudly in the online bookstores.
Excitement, anxiety, many emotions surfaced quite unexpectedly. I guess I wasn’t prepared for how daunting releasing a book could be; especially one so personal. Each rhyme carefully crafted, written from the heart during times when I’ve had to dig deep into my psyche to unleash inner strength. The purpose behind ‘Raw Emotion’ is not only to touch hearts with poignant rhymes which one can identify with, but to support two charities close to my heart… Lupus UK and Breakthrough Breast Cancer.
Last Monday I was interviewed by the features editor of ‘Lancashire Life’ magazine. I’m looking forward to seeing ‘Raw Emotion’ unveiled in the March edition. Also my scheduled book signings at Waterstones and WH Smith are cause for excitement.
Over the next couple of weeks I’m going to step back and recoup some energy. Anyone living with chronic illness may be familiar with the term ‘spoonie’ For those of you left wondering; there’s an interesting article relating to this called ‘But You Don’t Look Sick’ which can be read on the links page. I need to use my spoons wisely… Forcing myself from within my comfort zone is never without consequence, hence the physical slump I find myself in just now.
On Thursday I returned to the eye hospital to have my post operative check up. It sadly wasn’t the positive appointment I’d been hoping for. I’m still unable to drive at night and some issues with the right implant mean I can’t go ahead and have the cataract removed from my left eye until I’ve had further tests. I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry when my consultant said he considered me his challenge. Meanwhile I’m left with unbalanced eyes and a persistent headache! I was so very positive during the early days following surgery… I wish, just once things would be straight forward.
Physically I might not be feeling great, but I do have a satisfied little smile on my face having fulfilled one of my life time goals. If you’ve purchased a copy of ‘Raw Emotion’ Thank you! Also a big thank you to all of you who continue to read my blog.